Wow well it has been a few weeks since my last very angry post! Sorry about that folks, I really did have intentions for this post to be more about striving for happiness and positivity. But as my blog title says there is a lot of ups and downs in life.
August has not been a overly kind month for my family, it has been two years since my brother died, it would of been my Dad's 85th birthday and my Mom who has been I'll had a car accident on last Saturday. She is ok, but has ten broken ribs, cracked sternum and lots of bumps and bruises. Needless to say from my last post until this one I have seen way too much of Kingston General Hospital! No offense intended Mom's care has been great but would just rather not to go there for a while.
I have really been pulling on my internal strengths snd capacity to make it through this with out screaming my head off. Ok ok to be honest this time around has not been as easy, my poor hubby! I owe him some man roses! :) I do want to share something that has truly made the difference for me this last year as I have traversed the mental health care system with our son and the medical system with my Dad. A wise friend shared with me that in all situations we are only responsible for our decisions. So therefore we are not responsible for anyone else's decisions. This resonated with me and allowed me to realize that I do not need to carry guilt with me over things that can not be changed or things that other people do. This has allowed me to forgive myself and others. I wish more people understood this especially when it comes to situations like Robin Williams committing suicide. That was his decision and his alone. It doesn't not reflect on his friends and family. We all make personal decisions and sometimes we like to say that we were influenced and yes we can be but in the end it is our decision to own!
So this week I am trying to get back to my passions around happiness! I will be focusing on the fun silly things in my life, I will try to laugh more, tell the people that I love just how much I love them and how happy I am that they are part of my life! :) I hope you try this as well.
